Best Way to Celebrate my 21st Birthday

I had a feeling to celebrate my  21st birthday this year in an extra special way. I thought that life has always been good to me ( I graduated Cum Laude, and I have a good career plus I have an opportunity to study again-UP this year)  and as much as I wanted to receive more blessings, I wanted to be a blessing to others as well. Now it's time to give back and share my countless blessings to the less privileged and the less fortunate children. Since I have always believed in paying it forward,  White Cross Orphanage has given me the opportunity to help and do something nice for children I don't know. 

I kept thinking about how I’m going to celebrate my birthday this year even around a couple of months before my actual birthday.  But the inspiration to have a kiddie party in an orphanage came to mind only a few weeks prior to my birthday when I read a blog  from a mom who shared that she was inspired to throw a party at an orphanage because of this Bible passage:

“When you give a luncheon or a dinner, do not invite your friends or your brothers or your relatives or rich neighbors, otherwise they may also invite you in return and that will be your repayment.  But when you give a reception, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, and you will be repaid at the resurrection of the righteous.” (Luke 14:12-14)

White Cross is home to almost 100 less fortunate children, most of them are orphans, abandoned by their parents – many of them are children whose parents simply cannot afford to feed or provide for them. As a result, White Cross becomes temporary shelter for children that inevitably would have landed on the streets as beggars. The orphanage gives them all an education, a proper and loving environment to grow up in and cares for all their needs. You can only imagine what happens to a street urchin when they become sick – at White Cross, at least there is hope that all their medical needs will be addressed with the help from generous souls who hear and offer aid.

I invite all of you to come share a moment with these amazing children. The orphanage party will start at 2:30pm, Feb 8th. You are more than welcome to bring friends, your children of all ages, family – you will all enjoy. I can guarantee it.

We will feed 60 children – which is always a feat in itself 

so we will need all the help we can get. 

God willing, we will have some games, some gift giving, a lot of friendship and camaraderie – and for sure, we will have a memorable time that will enrich both your lives and that of the children you have the opportunity to interact with.

White Cross is asking for the diapers of all sizes, baby milk, laundry powder and bars, biscuits, rice, noodles, canned goods, juice and medicine. And should you wish to bring a present, please bring a simple gift for a child aged between 2-12. It doesn’t have to be anything fancy. It could be a pencil case, a coloring book and some crayons, a pair of slippers, a t-shirt, or a toy. Remember, these children have nothing of their own, so anything is most welcome.

PLEASE COME AND CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY AND 

GIVE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS TO ORPHANS!

Do I know you? You're invited! 

We've never met? So what? You're invited too! We'll meet on Friday, February 8!

I don't need a party nor birthday gifts. However orphans in WHITE CROSS ORPHANAGE do!

YOU DON'T NEED TO BRING A GIFT! However if you'd like to help or simply want some great food then please bring an unwrapped child's birthday gift (age 1-12 years) or a donation of any amount (ANY amount is acceptable and will help!)

Where?: White Cross Children’s Home

Who?: Everyone

Address?: White Cross Children's Home at 267 Santolan Rd. in San Juan City   

Date/Time?: February 8, 2013/Friday, 2:00pm

Let me end with some Bible verses:

Little children, let us stop just saying we love people; let us really love them, and show it by our actions. (1 John 3:18)

Once more, I am humbly knocking on your good heart to be with me in cooperation with White Cross Children's Home.

By sharing our blessings through giving we will be able to reach out people and let them feel that they are loved.

If you have anything that you want to hand with them – donations or pledges (in cash or in kind), kindly approach/contact me. Rest assured that all your gifts will be given to them.

It’s not how much you give but the love you put into giving.

If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth – I JOHN 3:17 -18

God send us people as an instrument for us to realize how blessed we are and how fortunate we are in living whatever life we have right now. But it doesn't end there, we are blessed by them and in return may we be a blessing as well to them and to others.

It means a lot to me, knowing that with the savings I set aside, I can share the blessings given to me, to kids in need. Kids! Who wouldn’t want to make the world a better place for them? Knowing that people come together to be able to save these children from sickness, or help send these kids to school. Knowing that we can help make their future better makes you want to help even more. 

Please come and help me to make this day more and more meaningful!

No child should suffer simply because, well, a child is just a child. 

Children are supposed to be pampered, loved, cared for.  While they’re still young, they should be allowed time to play and enjoy what life has to offer.

Share....

Reach out...

Give...

Be blessed and be a blessing...

PS: You can also contact me if you want to 

donate stuff but will not be able to come to

 my birthday, so we can talk how we can do it.

Email: vargasjacqueline09@yahoo.com

Contact No.: +63915-3424-038 

Photography and My Life

This is what I do. This is who I am. This is 

why I am happy. This is my life. 

When you photograph a face . . .you photograph the soul behind it.

In the world of photography, you get to share a captured moment with other people.

I GIVE UP!

Its been over a month since I drove off crying and you walked away. We could barely survive a week without each other, but here we are a MONTH later. I guess I have a lot to say since that month, but nothing worth mentioning, really. Not a day has gone by without something reminding me of you. I keep forgetting to forget, I suppose. I don’t have any anger built up and the only sadness I feel is that hopeless feeling; we used to be so close and now we’re complete strangers. I think that’s sad, but I also understand that this is how it will be. I’ve come to terms with that. I don’t toss and turn at night, awake with the memories of you anymore. I don’t cry. 

I knew I needed to do some inward healing and self-discovery in order to fix the things that were broken. Regardless of if I ended back up with my ex or decided to move on, I needed a way to get out my feelings and the lessons I learned along the way. This blog, in so many ways was a coping mechanism, and a necessary one at that. I wrote here religiously, sharing with you all the thoughts and emotions of a brokenhearted girl. A month has passed and I’m healed. Not completely, there are still scars from my past that present problems for my future, but I’m happy and whole. I’m a better person today than I was yesterday. 

I’m slowly learning how to let you go because I know when enough is enough. I’m content with being just friends because I prefer to be friends rather than to not be, right? Sure, letting go is extremely difficult, but I can’t keep holding onto something that I know will never be mine. I’m slowly letting my feelings fade away. It doesn’t mean that I’ve stopped liking you, it’s just not as strong as it used to be and my feelings never fully drift away.I pray everyday for God to guide me in the right direction and give me the strength to be a stronger person but I feel like I am alone with this one sometimes. How could I want to be with somebody that is constantly bringing me down then brings me back up again, its like my heart has been on a roller coaster ride that doesn't ever stop. I think in some ways its a type of abuse which is making my brain sick.

I am 20 years old and I feel like my life is falling apart even though it really hasn't begun. There were so many standards I set for myself before I met him. Like the qualities I wanted in a boyfriend and because I fell so in love with him I came to the terms that those things didn't matter but as the love fades I am starting realize that they do. I want to build a life with someone that believes in the same values and ideas that I do or at least similar. Then the reasons he makes for being such a piece of shit to me is because i am not with him or around him but how am I suppose to believe that and put my life in his hands if I do move over to him that he isn't gonna do the same thing to me or even worse. I just feel like i am disappointed in myself for not being a strong girl. I have to depend on this person to determine how my day is going to turn out like. Is he going to say something to be before I wake up and check my phone thats going to make me feel like shit all day, probably. Or am I going to be lucky today with one of his simple line expressing his love to me, which will make me feel good for 12 hours. I just feel stuck in my own misery :(. I just don't feel strong enough.

There’s a part of me that will always hold you in my heart, but I can’t keep holding on. I just can’t because I’m fighting a battle between my heart and my mind. My mind is winning right now because I know the reality of this. I can’t just keep letting my feelings grow to a new height because I’ll end up hurting myself more than ever.

I’m learning to let you go even though it hurts me. Even though it kills me to, I’m getting there. As much as it hurts me, I have to. I have to before my feelings grow to another level. I already know that I stand no chance with you regardless of how many people tell me that I don’t know that. I do because normally my instincts never tell me wrong. So, I’m slowly learning how to let you go. Being friends is better than nothing at all. It’s my fault for falling in the first place, so now I have to just dig myself out of it. Since I was the one who started it, I’ll end it as well. 

So, this is the ending to my feelings that will never fade, but just won’t be as strong as it used to be. I’m letting you go because I can’t afford to get hurt even more as selfish as it sounds especially when I know you can never be mine. I’m slowly letting you go as much as it kills me to. I really am.

I have to shift MY attention from "us" and "him/they" to "me."It gets to a point where you have to be honest with yourself and understand that it's officially over. It hurts a lot and it's been a month for me now but it's healthy to realize that and accept it. I don't know if it ever goes away completely, a part of me hopes it does for my own sake. No one likes to hurt. Start doing things that you had lost interest in when you were in the relationship or do things you'd never thought you'd do. It's a bittersweet emotion to feel happiness and not have that person anymore to share it with, but now it's time for you to relish in your happiness alone and be okay with being alone. If you believe in God, it helps to think and know that it's in God's hands and God will decide whether or not a new relationship should happen between you two or if you are better off apart. You cannot control your future, so live in your present. 

Take the baby steps, I'm not over him yet, but I'm learning to slowly accept this. It helped a lot to know I wasn't the only one who felt this way, my heart is still very much in love with him but once you start believing it's for YOUR best, it'll help you move forward.