Dear God,
The year is almost over. I've had my ups and downs. Good things and not so good thing have happened in my life..
Thank You for all the wonderful things in my life.
For Mama, Papa, Kuya, Ate and Lucky..
"MY VARGAS Family. There is nothing more important. They're the ones who show up when I'am in trouble. The ones who push me to succeed. The ones who help keep my secrets."
THANK YOU LORD For sending my "SUPER DUPER BESTFRIEND"...
"a BESTFRIEND who takes me for who i am."
"i have this BESTFRIEND who's with me wherever i go."
"Lord, She's great. I mean she's smart. She's beautiful. She's funny. She's stubborn. But she's a really, really good friend. And loyal to a fault, she believes in me. It's so good to have somebody like her in my life. God, if she goes away I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean she's my best friend,.. She's more than that...she's everything... "
THANK YOU For my "IVMALINE SEPHLYN BARKADA"
"When I look back at the good times I have had, I mean the really great times I have experienced in life, THEY were always right there by my side. But more importantly, when I look at the real rough times, all the trials, They were STILL by my side.. They're the people who are really there, no matter what."
THANK YOU LORD FOR MY "CBI FAMILY"...
"I don't have many people in my life who are in my life permanently, forever. They will always be there for me, I will always be there for them. "
Thank You For the JOYS of WONDERFUL FRIENDS
"DELIA 'EN COMPANY"
"Our lives have taken us in so many different directions since we first became friends, and yet our friendship has remained a lasting bond that keeps us from drifting too far apart. We've been there for each other in good times and bad, with support and sympathy, laughter and love. As I think about our friendship, I realize it is one of the things I cherish most about my life, And today, I just wanted to be sure THEY knew it, too."
Thank You For THIS "CRAZY FRIENDS" I have..
"MY BSEM FAMILY"
"The winding journey of uncertainty always seemed to lead us to the depths of misery. But together, we ventured into the unknown, forging a new path which will forever be remembered by the world. It was tough, but every minute with these guys was, and still, worth it all."
Thank You For my "I.N.C. FAMILY"
"they're one in a million, and I will never forget them for as long as I live. No matter how far apart we are, I know that they'll always be in my thoughts.Without even realizing it, they taught me a lot of things, not only about life, but about what true friendships can be like..."
THANK YOU LORD FOR "MY EINSTEIN FAMILY"
"We start out life with a clean slate. Then we begin to make our mark. We face decisions, make choices. We keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where we look back over where we have been... and wonder who we really are... "
And THANK YOU LORD for ALL THE GOOD PEOPLE AROUND ME..
You provide me with everything I need in life and for that I thank you! I run to you each time my life is in ruins and praise you when life is going well. So many times when things are great I forget to pray as much. For that I am sorry. Thank you for walking with me every day of my life. Without you I wouldn't even be alive...
Please help me Lord to be a better person...
Please help me with my temper...
Please help me with trusting people. I don't want to get angry when others do me wrong. I want to be able to forgive them. Not just say I do but truly forgive them in my heart.
Please let YOUR will be done in my life totally with everything....
I have been praying a lot more since the beginning of the year. I have fallen many times and somehow have found the strenght to get up and continue to trust You. I have been through so much emotionally this year. I have cried my eyes out....
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Some people asked me: “how are you?” and of course I told them I was fine..
I wonder why I gave them that answer. I guess it was an automatic response. I mean, what are you supposed to say when people ask you things like that?
You don’t ever say: “Well I’m not okay. I feel sick”. I guess in a way, I did what everyone else would do, give an answer I knew they were expecting....
But you know God, deep down inside, I really wanted to tell them, “I am not okay! It has been a lousy day. Can I please have a hug?” I guess when you’re sick physically, everyone can see that you’re not okay, and you can’t really lie about being ill. However when you’re sick inside, it’s very difficult for others to see your wounds.... You can always hide behind a smile, as I have done for so long...
And no one would ever know that you’re just faking it. God, how do I tell my loved ones when I hurt inside? How do I tell them that my heart is breaking?..
God I trust you and I love you very much...
I know how terrible life would be without You in it so why don't I feel as at ease as I see other people do? What am I doing wrong? What am I doing wrong in life? I see other people so happy and at peace yet I can't seem to find it. I know all of that comes with you, but I'm missing something somehow. I have come to you many times about relationships that didn't work and asked for them to come back or asked for my pain to end. I was so foolish. Today I am not asking for anything but your will to be done and please help me to understand... =)
I have worries and I would like to give them to You and never worry about them again...
You know exactly what I have been through and also exactly what I have done as well.
Please forgive me for all the wrongs I have done...
Forgive me for the people I have hurt. I have sinned with my mind body and mouth as well as in my heart. I ask for your forgiveness...
Thank you for all the blessings in my life. What I have asked for in this letter isn't nearly as important as what others need so if someone else needs You i understand there are worse things out there and i know how You have already blessed me in my life....
Please let your will be done in my life!
Help me walk the right path.
THANK YOU...
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING...
Love,
JACKIE
